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07 October 2008

It's been a hard year...

This past weekend I've been reflecting on this past year... and I've come to a conclusion... it's been a hard year. I think I'm ready for 2008 to be over, bring on 2009 I say. Sure, there's been some good things this year but over all it feels like a layer of yuckyness. Judy's illness, the church hunt, 5 months of a hurt foot, feeling the affects of not working out, rising plane ticket prices, moving and all that comes with transitions, insecurity overwhelming me at times, Grandma's declining health, Grandma's housing and the weight it is on my mom, a feeling of complacency/lack of passion, changing friendships and how I hate change, lots and lots of dental work and how that's affected my finances, some work projects that have been heavy, missing my MN friends and family on a deeper level, feeling old and the effects of age, and more. I am also awware I've been blessed in many many ways this year... but right now I can't help thinking about how it's just not been my year.

I need to spend more time processing this... seeing what I can learn... asking the Lord for hope and peace.

Isaiah 26:3-4
You will keep in perfect peace
him whose mind is steadfast,
because he trusts in you.
Trust in the Lord forever,
for the Lord, the Lord, is the Rock eternal.

3 Comments:

jenny said...

Oh Amy... I always love reading your musings. I love your clear and open heart - one that is full of depth and honesty. May God bring you bountiful blessings in 2009!

October 8, 2008 at 8:52 PM

J.Isakson said...

i wish i had the courage to be honest like you sometimes. i miss you and love you, and admire you so much. there is a lot of yuckiness going on. i can't wait to be in your presence again.

October 11, 2008 at 8:44 AM

Annette Paré Photography said...

i love you amy sue vanderwerf.....

October 12, 2008 at 5:48 PM

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